I’m sitting here eating a large bowl of chicken noodle soup after what was quite possibly the worst first day of school ever.
I’ve been sick since I got home from Atlanta, and this morning, I woke up much worse, with a very bad ear ache to accompany my sore throat and extremely congested sinuses. Right now I still can’t hear out of my right ear.
However, despite this illness, I got out of bed, took a shower, and tried to have a quiet time. As I tried to read some Ephesians through my sickly distraction, I prayed that God would teach me faith. Now I realize that I really had no idea what I was asking.
It was a miracle that I got to school, because I don’t think I’ve ever had so much trouble staying awake while driving (my classes are in Cocoa, so it was a good drive to get there). When I got to campus, there was nowhere to park, so I parked across the street for a few minutes to rest (I was early) before trying to find a spot.
Finally, I got a fairly decent parking spot. But once I got out of my car, a bee decided to grace me with his presence by flying in through my open door. Now, I’ve never been stung by a bee or a wasp, so I can’t say for certain that I am not allergic. There was no way I was leaving this car with a bee in it. So I proceeded to run from door to door of my car trying to coerce the insect out. Finally, I got him cornered and (rest his soul) smashed him with a plastic-wrapped set of paper plates.
Class itself was actually pretty interesting, and I think I will enjoy this semester. I also got out quite early, so that was a plus. I headed home, all the while calling around trying to get a doctor’s appointment and letting my boss know I couldn’t make it to work. By the time I got home, I still had no doctor’s appointment, and greeted my dad and older sister with tears of frustration/pain. I needed a hug.
So, my saint of a sister, Chelsea, drove me around town until I finally found a doctor who would take my new health insurance. I got in, got a prescription, and headed to Walgreens to wait for my meds. While sitting next to a surprisingly chatty old lady (she had just had 6 teeth pulled!), I got a phone call from the guys repairing my laptop. This is when I got the news that my loyal lappy was officially pronounced dead at 3:24pm on January 9th, 2012. (may he rest in peace)
I forgot to mention that I cannot afford a new laptop, much less a doctor’s appointment/medication. Currently, I am not even sure I can afford this semester of school. So at this point in the day, I was done. All I wanted was to pay too much money for some pills, go home, and sleep until I felt better. I didn’t want to think about school, or money, or health insurance, or what laptop to buy.
Thankfully, I finally made it home around 4:00pm and was able to fall asleep for a few hours. Which brings us to now – me eating chicken noodle soup, and writing about a horrible day.
I don’t write this to get pity from any of the few people who will read this. Rather, I write it because I realized today that God was teaching me faith the whole way through. Faith in His provision. And, even though I get stressed out too much, I can honestly say that I do believe He will provide for me. Maybe not tomorrow, like I wish He would…but He will always give me what I need when I need it. And He always has.
So, remembering the ways in which the Lord has provided for me every day, I have faith that He will continue to do so in His timing. Thanks, God. <3
Be encouraged! You are sharing in His sufferings! And thats a good thing. Feel better!